I'm giving this "Blogging" lark a bash, after 2 years of waffling away on Facebook , and having become increasingly disillusioned on that particular forum with the fact that people seem not to want to read anything that is longer than one sentence. Before I started to use Facebook ( Note the Drug terminology..."Use"....Suitable for anything addictive...) ....Anyway, before I started to use Facebook , I used to slag it off as only being for teenage girlies , or for those who wanted to tell others what they's had for Dinner. I really didn't get it....."WHY Oh Why do people want to share the dull details of their everyday existence with other People" wrote Confused of Swanage.
And then I stupidly went and had a Nervous Breakdown , which I decided to follow up with 2 years of Clinical Depression , and a long period where I was unable to work. There is only so much "Cash In The Attic" a man can watch before he looks for other ways to fill his days. Especially when much of his day is spent slumped in a corner of the lounge in a soporific state , with his ability to interract successfully with his fellow Humans being seriously compromised by his Mental Health problems. So I turned to Dr. Facebook.
This also coincided with a discovery of The Camera. I've always been a keen walker, but my Depression took away the ability to actually enjoy this pastime. I carried on doing it , as even through the swirling mists of my addled mind, I knew that I had to push myself to keep doing something active , and I found that if I carried a camera, it gave the walk at least some sense of purpose. I also found that if I then posted these photos on Facebook, people seemed to like them. I wasn't feeling particularly fortunate, but I could see that from other people's perspective , I was lucky enough to have the time and energy to walk and kayak in some beautiful places that were denied to the "Working Population." , so people were able to share some of Dorset's beauty through my lens.
I've always held quite strong Political views . I aired many of these on the pages of Facebook . People didn't always agree with these , but I did manage to at least stimulate some lively discussion, particularly around the time of the General Election. I also tried to develop several "Running Themes" , with topics such as Cheryl Cole, Harry Redknapp , and The Conservative Party . Without wishing to sound too pretentious , I saw my Facebook Page as a kind of Magazine, and attempted to avoid the whole " Today I had Egg & Chips " thing , that had originally filled me with such dread.
I also regularly commented on my ongoing struggle with Depression . As a Psychiatric Nurse myself, I am very keen to do my bit to try and break down some of the stigma attached to Mental Health issues, and have no problem with being very open about my own problems. I am very aware that this is not for everyone , and I could sense that not everyone felt comfortable with commenting on my Posts on this subject.
My affair with Facebook has always been a Love/Hate one. I possibly have an Addictive Personality. I gave up Drinking 20 years ago due to the fact that if I had One Pint , I would then need to have 8 or 9 more. So I stopped altogether. And Facebook has been much the same. Possibly due to having time on my hands, and struggling to involve myself in "Normal Social Situations" , it was all to easy to live life through the pages of Facebook , and I have over-indulged.
There have been many Positives. It has allowed me to express myself at a time when my thoughts may otherwise have been bottled up , and much of this unloading has been very cathartic. I have also become "Friends" with some lovely, interesting folk that I wouldn't have met , and also developed closer understanding of People that I thought I already knew well , but didn't.
So......Time to move on. I have tried several times to escape from Facebook World. I've dug tunnels underneath Wooden Horses , ridden pillion on Steve McQueen's Motorbike as he jumped the fence , and even just de-activated my Account. But crawled back every time with my tail between my legs.......So, I'm not going to say it's all over between us, but I shall be trying to see a little less of her , and to see how we go from there......